I love Google. Use it daily for the most sensible and nonsensical things. Sometimes to check what matches a certain ingredient, to look up the address of company a, b or c or for the more serious stuff.
Until today I had not checked on the world wide web what exactly a talus fracture means. Purely because – out of self-protection – I did not want to hear any negative sounds. But at a certain point you get a little curious and when someone tells you that it is wise to read up on it, sooner or later you start looking…
And now I wish I could undo it. Because Google tells me that a talus fracture rarely if ever heals completely. That you will always have pain and mobility problems. That recovery takes a really long time and the outlook is bleak.
Hello…. And to think I have only looked at one web page. I haven’t done any in-depth research, and after that one page I decided not to do so. Because what does it profit me to know that 9 out of 10 people never fully recover from it ? (This is not a fact by the way. I am just afraid that is what I will find…) What does it benefit me to know that the prognosis is not that good?
So I have resolved to stop seeing Google as my friend when it comes to my ankle. Because – ladies and gentlemen – my ankle is one of a kind. My ankle hasn’t been anyone else’s and it’s going to stay that way. So if I have decided that – sooner or later, short or long – I am going to heal? Then that’s just the way it is.
And I want to keep that positivity. I want to be able to believe in that. Maybe against my better judgment, but what certainly doesn’t help is to read all that negativity now and then get down on my luck “because there’s no point anyway.”
That one unique ankle, mine, doesn’t know it yet, but is going to work terribly hard to get everything out of it. And should I end up limping or whatever, so be it. I know I have a lot of work to do and it’s going to be tough at times, but I have to believe in the strength of my body.
If you have any experience in the matter, I’d love to hear about it, but preferably not the negatives. I’ll find those on my own. Tips, tricks and advice – if in the positive sphere – are most welcome!